UnMerry Christmas

It has been going on for quite some days now. Not sure if its hormones kicking out of place or just a really sad holiday.

Because really, I should be brimming with gladness and thanking the heavens for all the blessings we have received this month. Yet, like some of my posts, it’s an up and down kinda thing. Here’s the sitch : Last week, I was officially a part of a marketing agency based in the US. Owner-founder, his family and the whole team are just too kind and generous. When I planned to go back to my VA business, this is by far, the best position I applied for. Doesn’t hurt that it pays well too.

Then PMS started, plus all other issues. Family related. I guess I’m just a bit burnt out by all the affairs that has been going on. Plus, I miss my mom, who is in the U.S. for her chemotherapy. We didn’t go to my side of the family for the traditional Christmas Eve reunion, just because I was in a compromise, so we could attend the reunion at the province this month-end at my dad’s side. It’s kind of complicated when you have 2 strong family bonds.

I guess I’m also just feeling a bit unwanted and rejected on some levels. Something I couldn’t discuss with my husband, as I feel it would only bring more negative discussions.

My point, I am quite depressed this season. I hope it ends soon.



Cheers to a gleeful holidays!

What’s been going on lately? It has been more than a year from my last post. Although I must admit, I have had several drafts of posts lined up, but never really got to publish, for some reason or another.


Well, here I am again! What have I been up to since I last wrote here? The usual VA work, plus a Youtube vlog, a network marketing company that I totally believe in, and a slump in business. Yes, a LOT has happened. And at this point, if you haven’t noticed (from the footprints I’ve been leaving in the world wide web), I only get to write when I’m feeling down. Why? Don’t exactly know.

I am at an abyss, a waiting time, a chasm, a void. I am speaking only for a certain part of my life. Career. Because family and marriage-wise, I am happy and blessed. These are the only reasons why I still haven’t slumped back to depression. You know the feeling that everything seems to be okay when you REALLY think about it, but there’s this one feeling that’s missing? Yes, exactly where I’m at right now.

Christmas is almost near. And I may not be able to post another ‘rant’ (LOL) by then. So yeah, have a blessed and merry Christmas everyone! Hope everything will be well before the year ends.

Love you all!


Updates, updates…


It’s not about me; it’s always about Him

This writer has been on a very long hiatus. Why? Because LIFE happened. A lot of it.

I am not here to tell you about what happened in between my last post and now. I have other blogs for those. Truth is, I missed this blog. Its one of the very first blogs I made. The rest only followed. This was my DIARY back then. Now, I plan to update this as often as I can. Even if they’re just murmurs of some sort. *crossing fingers*

So what’s with today. A lost client, that’s what. Although my Christian life has taught me a lot about these things, and for that I am very grateful. Even though circumstance may mean a big change in our lifestyle or in the dreams we’ve planned as a family, I still find peace in knowing that this may be God’s way of showing that He is STILL in control. Of everything. Yes, including our finances. We may have been too consumed of recent developments in our so-called life.

The past days, I think God was trying to nudge me that something’s about to happen. He always does. I may have been too stubborn (again) to really listen and understand what He was trying to say. I went ahead with selfish things like feel that I deserve rest and recreation. I know God will always bless me with these. But he has to initiate it. So it won’t have any trouble.

The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich,and he adds no sorrow with it. – Proverbs 10:22

I will need to learn to listen. I mean, really listen. To what God says. And not to what I say or what anybody else says. God will always give me what’s best for me. I just need to listen, to follow.

What has been…

The past few weeks have been terribly busy for me. There were renovations in my house, primarily for safety. If you must know, this household is composed of 3kids, a househelp and yours truly. And with what has been happening here and there, I’m just being cautious for my family. I have to keep them safe, y’know.

Renovations ended but my 2nd child (who has been living with her grandmother for the past months) is now here with us and I have a riot house, literally. It’s hard keeping up with them. They seek too much attention and time. Not that I don’t like spending time with them, but its just too tiring (and annoying) sometimes.

I’m keeping myself sane with books, crocheting, gardening, cooking, errands and whatnots. I need some me time but contrary to what I’ve just said, I’m enjoying my time with the kids while they’re still complete. ^_^

My Good Friday

Today was spent in a rather busy tone. I’m not sure if it follows my Catholic beliefs, but I’m pretty sure I am honoring a mother, one of the Ten Commandments given by God, when I do my duties today.

We are having some renovations done on our house. First, was because of security. Then, it turned out, we needed some repairs and a storage room done too.
I am left only with one kid today. The 2 boys are with their grandmother, busy bonding. The first part of the day was spent with silent cries for missing the hubby and my baby boys. The rest was for errands and chores for the “elders”. I am actually enjoying being a full time mom now. I have enough time for the kids (except for the 2nd one, who’s been with her grandmother since the hubby left). I accompany my eldest to a singing workshop 3 times a week. I still take care of the little girl 80-85% of the day. So yes, I am fulfilled. I have a few bouts of loneliness, I won’t deny it. But I am content with what I have. Financial issues here and there, but God has always provided. My family was never really hungry. We have a house to live in. Life is good.
So, where does Good Friday take me? I spend some of it watching television where they feature lives of different people and how God has made a difference in each. I have my own testimony of how God has been really good to me. He may have knocked on my door a few times, just to tell me I have more important things I need to prioritize and he may have done it too to keep my feet on the ground. A humbling and fruitful experience.
I find myself gloomy at times, but at the end of the day, I still remember to let God be God. He has never failed me. I may think otherwise some of the time, but when I assess these days like now, I realize, He has never really forsaken me. I was the one who has forgotten.

With all the day’s reflection, it is a good friday, indeed.

How’d you spend yours?

In the Roman Catholic Church

Day of Fasting

Crucifix prepared for veneration.

The Catholic Church treats Good Friday as a fast day, which in the Latin Rite of the Church is understood as having only one full meal (but smaller than a regular meal) and two collations (a smaller repast, two of which together do not equal one full meal) and on which the faithful abstain from eating meat. In countries where Good Friday is not a day of rest from work, the afternoon liturgical service is usually put off until a few hours after the recommended time of 3 p.m.

Services on the day

The Latin Rite ordinarily has no celebration of Mass between the Lord’s Supper on Holy Thursday evening and the Easter Vigil unless a special exemption is granted for rare solemn or grave occasions by the Vatican or the local bishop. The only sacraments celebrated during this time are Baptism (for those in danger of death), Penance, and Anointing of the Sick.[13] While there is no celebration of the Eucharist, it is distributed to the faithful only in the Service of the Passion of the Lord, but can also be taken at any hour to the sick who are unable to attend this service.[14] During this period crosses, candlesticks, and altar cloths are removed from the altar which remains completely bare.[15] It is also customary to empty the holy waterfonts in preparation of the blessing of the water at the Easter Vigil.[16] Traditionally, no bells are rung on Good Friday or Holy Saturday until the Easter Vigil.

The Celebration of the Passion of the Lord takes place in the afternoon, ideally at three o’clock, but for pastoral reasons a later hour may be chosen.[17] The vestments used are red (more commonly) or black (more traditionally).[18] Before 1970, vestments were black except for the Communion part of the rite when violet was used.[19] Before 1955 black was used throughout.[20] If a bishop or abbotcelebrates, he wears a plain mitre (mitra simplex).[21]


Communion from the Blessed Sacramenton Good Friday (Our Lady of Lourdes, Philadelphia).

The liturgy consists of three parts: the Liturgy of the Word, the Veneration of the Cross, and Holy Communion.

  • The Liturgy of the Word, consists of the clergy and assisting ministers entering in complete silence, without any singing. They then silently make a full prostration, “[signifying] both the abasement of ‘earthly man,’[22] and also the grief and sorrow of the Church.”[23] Then follows the Collect prayer, and the reading or chanting of Isaiah 52:13-53:12Hebrews 4:14-165:7-9, and the Passionaccount from the Gospel of John, traditionally divided between three deacons,[24] yet often divided between the celebrant and more than one singer or reader. This part of the liturgy concludes with theorationes sollemnes, a series of prayers for the Church, the Pope, the clergy and laity of the Church, those preparing for baptism, the unity of Christians, the Jewish people, those who do not believe in Christ, those who do not believe in God, those in public office, those in special need.[25] After each prayer intention, the deacon calls the faithful to kneel for a short period of private prayer; the celebrant then sums up the prayer intention with a Collect-style prayer.
  • The Veneration of the Cross, has a crucifix, not necessarily the one that is normally on or near the altar at other times, solemnly displayed to the congregation and then venerated by them, individually if possible and usually by kissing the wood of the cross, while hymns and the Improperia (“Reproaches”) with the Trisagion hymn are chanted.[26]
  • Holy Communion is done according to a rite based on that of the final part of Mass, beginning with the Our Father, but omitting the ceremony of “Breaking of the Bread” and its related chant, the “Agnus Dei“. The Eucharist, consecrated at the Evening Mass of the Lord’s Supper on Holy Thursday is distributed at this service.[27] Before the reform of Pope Pius XII, only the priest received Communion in the framework of what was called the “Mass of the Presanctified“, which included the usual Offertory prayers, with the placing of wine in the chalice, but which omitted the Canon of the Mass.[20] The priest and people then depart in silence, and the altar cloth is removed, leaving the altar bare except for the cross and two or four candlesticks.[28]

Stations of the Cross

The Way of the Cross, celebrated at theColosseum in Rome on Good Friday.

Rome: canopy erected at the “Temple of Venus and Rome” during the “Way of the Cross” ceremony.

In addition to the prescribed liturgical service, the Stations of the Cross are often prayed either in the church or outside, and a prayer service may be held from midday to 3.00 p.m., known as theThree Hours’ Agony. In countries such as MaltaItalyPhilippinesPuerto Rico and Spain, processions with statues representing the Passion of Christ are held.

In Rome, since the papacy of His Holiness John Paul II, the heights of the Temple of Venus and Roma and their position opposite the main entrance to the Colosseum have been used to good effect as a public address platform. This may be seen in the photograph below where a red capopy has been erected to shelter the Pope as well as an illuminated cross, on the occasion of the Way of the Cross ceremony. The Pope, either personally or through a representative, leads the faithful through meditations on the stations of the cross while a cross is carried from there to the Colosseum.

In Polish churches, a tableau of Christ’s Tomb is unveiled in the sanctuary. Many of the faithful spend long hours into the night grieving at the Tomb, where it is customary to kiss the wounds on the Lord’s body. A life-size figure of Christ lying in his tomb is widely visited by the faithful, especially on Holy Saturday. The tableaux may include flowers, candles, figures of angels standing watch, and the three crosses atop Mt Calvary, and much more. Each parish strives to come up with the most artistically and religiously evocative arrangement in which the Blessed Sacrament, draped in a filmy veil, is prominently displayed.

Acts of Reparation to Jesus Christ

El Greco‘sJesus Carrying the Cross, 1580

The Roman Catholic tradition includes specific prayers and devotions as acts of reparation for the sufferings and insults that Jesus suffered during his Passion on Good Friday. These Acts of Reparation to Jesus Christ do not involve a petition for a living or deceased beneficiary, but aim to repair the sins against Jesus. Some such prayers are provided in the Raccolta Catholic prayer book (approved by a Decree of 1854, and published by the Holy See in 1898) which also includes prayers as Acts of Reparation to the Virgin Mary.[29][30][31][32]

In his encyclical Miserentissimus Redemptor on reparations, Pope Pius XI called Acts of Reparation to Jesus Christ a duty for Catholics and referred to them as “some sort of compensation to be rendered for the injury” with respect to the sufferings of Jesus.[33]

Pope John Paul II referred to Acts of Reparation as the “unceasing effort to stand beside the endless crosses on which the Son of God continues to be crucified“.[34]


The Holy Week commemorations reach their peak on Good Friday as the Roman Catholic Church celebrates the passion of Jesus. Solemn celebrations take place in all churches together with processions in different villages around Malta and Gozo. During the celebration, the narrative of the passion is read in some localities. The Adoration of the Cross follows. Good Friday processions take place in BirguBormlaGhaxaqLuqaMostaNaxxarPaolaQormiRabatSengleaVallettaŻebbuġ (Città Rohan) andŻejtun. Processions in Gozo will be in NadurVictoria (St. George and Cathedral), Xaghra and Żebbuġ, Gozo.

The Philippines

In predominantly Roman Catholic Philippines, the day is commemorated with street processions, the Way of the Cross, the chanting of the Pasyon, and the staging of theSenakulo, a Passion play. Church bells are not rung and Masses are not celebrated. In some communities, (most notably in the island province of Marinduque or in the San FernandoPampanga), processions include devotees who practise mortification of the flesh. They engage in self-flagellation and sometimes even have themselves crucified as expressions of penance despite health issues and strong disapproval from the Church.[35]

After three o’clock in the afternoon of Good Friday (the time at which Jesus is traditionally believed to have died), the faithful are urged to keep a very solemn and prayerful disposition until EasterSunday. Noise and merriment is highly discouraged, while businesses close, and some radio and television stations close down.

Other television networks remain on-air but give way to special religious programming, like movies on the lives of Christ and the Saints or inspirational dramas. Some tie-up with the communications arms of religious orders like the SVD, theJesuits, and the Dominicans to provide telecasts of the day’s rites live from Catholic churches. These events usually include the reading of the Siete Palabrás, the recitation of the Stations of the Cross, and the Commemoration of the Lord’s Passion.

In Cebu and other Visayan Islands, people usually eat binignit and biko as a form of fasting.

Good Friday Calendar:
2011 = April 22
2012 = April 6
2013 = March 29
2014 = April 18
2015 = April 3

The Willing Willie Incident

While I may be a part of his audience (not anymore though; has been that way for a few months now), I condemn (for lack of a lighter word) what happened a few days ago, when a child was forced to dance what seems to be a macho or dirty dance. And the fact that this child is actually crying while the audience and Willie continue to laugh and cheer. I found it disgusting and sad. No, I wasn’t there to watch it live. I actually just saw glimpses of it (thank God) from one of TV5s news programs. But what I saw was the issue and that was enough.

Watching it, it was like watching a horror movie where a demon or demonic person laughs his demon laugh while watching someone suffer. That was the exact same feeling, except that it was happening in real life. I sympathize with the boy. How can somebody so young be humiliated in front of national television? Was it really for the ratings? Was it the game of the networks? Was it actually entertaining to watch this kind of thing?

I am a mother. I have been so for the past 9years. I cry when my kids don’t feel well. I empathize with how they’re feeling whether it be sad or happy. I also believe that kids should not be exposed to things such as violence and sex and harshness of life. That I, as a parent, should do all that I could to protect and not exploit. This is what happened that day. All because of money and greed. Of the boy’s family, of the host of the show, of the network it was being aired at.

image of JanJan dancing courtesy of deiniel.com

I love shows. I love watching the television because it entertains me especially when I’m feeling low and lonely. But when these things happen, I can’t help but feel that television is just a devil’s advocate.

Just my two cents. What’s yours?